I'm just trying my best to keep us all singin'

     I've only been writing blogs since January, that's just about 7 months, and I constantly question if its doing any good.  If people are reading it, or inspired by it, or care about what I'm doing (besides my parents, Hi mom!).  So every time I come to write a new one I tend to look back and think, is this worth doing?  Well the answers to my question came in many different ways this week. First, writing this helps me to work through things.  This is probably obvious to most of you and you can probably play it out like I'm a struggling movie character in a classic horror movie, everyone knows that the monster/zombie/murder is hiding behind the door but for some reason the character in the movie just doesn't see it!  Second, I come to check out my views of my blog every once in a while and see that on average, there are 155 views to each blog I write.  That to me is crazy.  So thank you for caring.  Third, is more physical evidence.  In the past few days I have gotten a few E-mails of people telling me that they were touched by something that was said in my blog, people that I've never before talked to in my life, that happen to come across it. And so I will continue on expressing my thoughts and feelings here and working through things.  Just know, that I really do appreciate all you readers, and I love when I get feedback or comments or E-mails from you, I love seeing the outside perspective of things. So thank you!  Dr. Watson once said in my psychology of human sexuality class that being in Love blocks the same neurotransmitters as being high on substance (such as cocaine), and so it can significantly damage our decision making ability.  I am clearly in love with Jesus, so maybe my neurotransmitters are a little blocked and I could use some help from someone more sane!

      I was just talking to Caitlin here (20, Canada) and I was telling her just some things that I see in her and we began talking about before DTS and now and the changes that we see in each other.  This is a pretty common topic these days and will probably be even more common over the last month here.  I've come to realize more and more that I didn't get what I was coming for.  I didn't get the hard biblical teaching I thought I would, or the seminary style of lectures I was looking for, or the beautiful piece of paper that says you know the bible.  But, all in God's plan. I came to realize,  instead I got lessons that I would have never thought I was looking for.  How to live in a Christian Community.  How to be a Light among the Lights.  A crash course on missions. A deep, impact full personal relationship with Christ. A chance to see the world.  A chance to serve Christ.  A deeper love for people, God's Children. And So many other things.

      Okay, moving on! Things have been cruising over the last week, I still have the same question on my mind of what the next step is, and probably will for the rest of my life, just like most people.  Always seeking for Christ kind of requires that, as God is always moving.  We're coming down to the end of it, there's only 10 more days left until I'll be stepping back on that plane.  I know from experience, this is an easy time to shut down.  To check out and start looking forward to home and basic things that I take advantage of, like a couch that I actually fit in! (People here are just naturally smaller). This is too easy of a mindset to get into. This is the time we have to really push through!   It gets worse though, tomorrow we're saying goodbye to beautiful Darjeeling and headed down the mountain.  The temperature will no longer be a comfortable 68 degrees, but a miserable 93 degree's with a humidity of 90%.  This is one of those times that as soon as you step out of the bucket shower area, you are once again sweating. 
     One of my professors in college once said this the first day of class; "Statistics show that as murder rates rise, so does the sale of Ice Cream."  Now as a young college mind, it was easy to think, 'so, after people go commit murder, they go out for Ice Cream after? creepy'  When the correlation is actually because of the rise in temperature that brings both of these things to increase.  Needless to say, we're not excited to be back in a hot and humid place. 
       It's about a 3 hour Jeep ride to Siliguri, where we will be doing more kids ministry.  Something new is that we are going to be teaching at a Bible College.  I have no idea what I, Jeremy, can teach BIBLE students, who have probably read through the bible 10+ times and are getting their masters in some type of theological study. Who knows, but what I do know is that I can bless the people, and maybe show them a little something of America if they care to know.  Maybe talk about some of the things I've come to learn over the last 6 months.  Who knows. 
      Last weekend was awesome, we went on quite a adventure.  It was a spontaneous journey that lead us to a school.  Now I could talk about the things we did there, children's parties, house visits, church sermons, and the like, but I'd rather talk about Sarah. (not her real name)   She is a true servant of Christ.  She's single, adopted 6 kids, runs the school, runs a church out of the school, and constantly hikes around for hours for fellowship among believers.  She is an inspiration to me and all of my team.  That is Dying To Self, that is what it means to be a follower of Christ.  After all the scheduled ministry was done, we got to just hang out with her and her 6 kids late one night while cooking dinner.  Those are moments I'll never forget.  Playing in the rain while the power is out genuinely enjoying each others company knowing that we have the same ultimate goal: Bring Glory to God. And nothing will ever, ever stop us.




Chained to him,

Jeremy
jcrob33@gmail.com 

Hike on! 

Tea! So good here. 

No room in the car, so we ride on top. 

House church fellowship. 

The question on my mind...

   Alright I don't know where I'm going to go with this because there is a lot I can say, but only so much that I should over the internet. But this will probably be more of a place for me to vent some of what I'm thinking and feeling over the last week or so, just a heads up...
     We have worship every morning with our team.  Usually just for a half hour or so, and its normally just Ronnie on a acoustic Guitar, sometimes when we really want to get wild I'll pickup and Djembe they have here on base.  Its usually relatively quiet as its early in the morning and no one really wants to talk let alone sing.  Our leaders really have to push us to do it, but its a good thing and we always see the benefit of praising Jesus in the morning and throughout our day.  Anyway, we often sing this song called "Set A Fire" by Will Reagan and there is a line in it that says "There's no place that I'd rather be."   This song and this line has effected me many times and gotten me through some hard times in life even.  It's something that I have to say just about every morning I'm here.  And once I say it I realize just how amazing it is to be here, there really is no place I would rather be, even when its hard and I miss home.  The days are going by faster and faster and things are starting to mix together where I don't realize what we're actually doing anymore or know the schedule.  People at the coffee shop next to base are getting to know us and our orders, its like, we're starting to actually submerge into the culture and lifestyle here.  Something that just wouldn't happen on most missions trips when you only go somewhere for two weeks or even a month.
    Anyway, Last week we did a kids camp again, it was quite different then the kids camp from a few weeks ago.  Honestly, it was a tough one only because we were just kind of thrown into it.  It was a day camp for 52 Hindu and Buddhist kids who didn't speak too much English.  And we were asked to basically run the entire thing.  If you know me, you know that I have some experience in working with kids and youth, and I quite enjoy that stuff.  This just added and extra little challenge. I pulled a lot of the games/activities/songs from one of my all times favorite camps; SKSK.  I constantly go back to that camp and how much I've learned from it while being a leader there.  So, if any of you SKSKers are reading this, just know that the skills you learn there, as in, how to work with kids and be able to stay organized in a large group situation, are valuable skills you will use the rest of your life.  Because of this skill, I was able to help run a great camp, especially with the rest of the team bringing energy and support.
    But back to the origins of this Blog, The question on my mind...
    What the heck am I going to do after DTS?  Suggestions? Ideas? Thoughts?  I mean I have a few of my own but I'd be open to just about anything at this point!  This hits me harder as I was forced to celebrate my 24th birthday last week.  24.  I mean come on.  I never thought I would be where I am now at the age of 24.  I feel like I've barely turned 21 and have just been able to explore the world, and explore myself!  I thought my this time I would be married, or at least on the road to it!  Figured I would be in a settled down place where I would be sitting for the next 15 or 20 years! But instead I'm just a kid and life is only now beginning.  What a ride.
     I first left home thinking that I would just put life at home on pause, and go straight back after DTS to my life at the church, working, same friends, same place.  I've come to find this just isn't possible.  Oh I'm not saying I'm not coming home, I very well could be there for the rest of my life, good old Highlands Ranch, Colorado.  But its not possible for me to run through the same things as before, I've changed, completely.  So now, I have options, where will I go now? Where will I end? What is my 1 month, 3 month, 6 month, and 2 year plan?  I can rightfully say, I don't have one.  Current thoughts.  Right as I get home, I'll actually do a bit of traveling in the states for weddings, vacation, catching up, and such.  During this time I want to push myself to truly read through the bible, as every morning I'm forced to shut it and start the day wanting to instead keep my head in the Word.    But after that, what?  I could come back to Aussie and staff for 1.5 years.  I could go to Seminary for my MDiv, I could look for a youth worker Job, I could move to California.     I honestly pray that God will Close doors, as well as open the right ones.
This has been my prayer:
"I am yours do what you wish, I am yours and I know this.  I am yours do what you wish."


Chained to him,

Jeremy

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Beautiful hikes. Would have been much nicer if I wasn't carrying all our gear! Weighing about 60 pounds. 

All I want is Faith

   Faith, true faith.  This brings everything.  When having true faith, you start to understand how God works.  You start to see things in a different light.  You start to notice things you never have before and realize just how big God is and how he has his hand in every little thing.  "Not a single sparrow will fall to the ground without the father knowing it." (Matt. 10:29)  You start to believe that God really is watching over you, and, not saying that Life is going to be easy, but the father truly wants what is best for you and for his Glory.  Faith brings so much more then I can even try to explain. "Faith Brings Joy" (Romans 5)
     I have a friend at home, and if you know me, you probably at least know of him.  His name is Matt.  He has a tattoo that I never really understood, it reads T.A.H (Things Are Happening).  Sure, he's explained it to me many times about how God was speaking to him over his outreach in Haiti, that even when he doesn't think he is doing much, just stepping out in faith, things will happen, even when we don't see it.  Things are always happening, God is always moving. This is something I had to force myself to remember and believe last week.
    We went to a small town called Mirik, its just down the hill from Darjeeling, but it takes about 3 hours to get there because of the roads here.  Everyone got car sick and wanted desperately for the road trip to end. When it finally did, we got to a church, not in the mood to meet anyone at all, but we were there to meet the team that was putting on a Youth Camp that week which we would be helping with.  I got excited.  One of my favorite weeks in the year is camp.  I end up doing at least two every summer and always have since I can remember.  I went as a camper and as soon as I could be a counselor, I did, then ended up taking a role over skits and preaching and tech and games, and doing everything I could to help because I loved camp so much and it was a place where I saw growth in my faith, even today.
     5:45am, Wednesday morning.  We walk down to the event hall, and I'm ready for a long day of crazy activities and games and deep talks with the students.  First is worship.  This lasted about an hour which was awesome, then lecture just like any camp ever.  I start to feel a little skeptical when I find out the topic is Fear The Lord, something we just learned about during DTS and a deep topic for students.  Lecture went on straight through lunch! A true college type lecture.  I figured after lunch the craziness would begin... I was wrong, more worship... more lecture! Then a break at 3:30, I come back at 6 thinking it would be a fun evening... I start the night out with a short devotional, where my main goal was to make the students laugh! Then, more lecture! and dinner at 8... then sleep at 9.   This same schedule went on the entire of the week.
          Come to the end of the week, I was disappointed, thinking "I hope kids don't go away thinking this is what the Christian life is, that there is true fun and adventure in Christ"  But its a wrong thought to have.  I look back and realize those kids sat there and didn't say a word every single day,  God was moving.  Even though we did nothing but sit in the back and read our bibles, (they didn't speak in english) somehow, I like to believe and have faith that God was moving, and even using us, to glorify his name.  That Things Are Happening, even when we don't see what good we might be doing by just being there for support.  All Glory to God. Please take my life and use it.
    It makes me appreciate the wonderful camps and programs at home, the ones that changed my life as a young student.  Just as I got back to the base I had messages waiting for me about how amazing SKSK was this year (This is the first time in 13 years I've missed it), and that the Liquid students are headed to California for Hume Lake/SD this week.  Students, realize just how amazing these times are.  They go by quickly, grab them, hold on to every memory you can.


Chained to him,
Jeremy

(Team Blog: http://indiaywam.blogspot.com/)

Drum set I briefly played. 

Ronnie giving a Devo.