I've had the chance to sit back for an afternoon, and it was amazing. I forgot just how beautiful Colorado is, and for some reasons its when I'm driving alone that I see this beauty, and from this beauty, I see Christ. Anyway, I got to watch Freedom Writers, have you ever seen this movie? If not, seriously consider it because it was SSOOOOO good. Especially if you work with students in any way, shape, or form, this was inspirational to say the least. It made me take a look at my own life though, you know, there's this teacher who gives up anything and everything for this one class of kids. She worked 3 jobs just to pay for books and extra activities outside of the classroom. She no longer cared about the "job" that she had, but instead cared about the kids that she had the privilege of speaking into to their lives. Now, the one thing that is quite sad is she went through a divorce through this process, but there is still a lot of lessons to be taken away from this lady.
You see, I'm kind of in the same spot right now. I mean, I very well could start applying to churches else where, but I just absolutely love the students I already have. No longer is it about my job, but about these students. And if it takes me working full time at Pizza Hut, so be it. If I can help, I'm in. That being said, there is motivation for me to move on and find some kind of "career" in order to prepare myself in the next wave of life.
To be honest, I'm nervous about seminary. I'm sick of waiting to see if I'm even going to get in. What will happen if I don't? That would blow apart what I thought the plan was. And maybe that's the key word... "I". I don't want to follow my plan, but God's. So, if I don't get in, so be it, God has another plan.
This morning I was listening to John Piper about Calvinism. I, like most people my age, hated the idea of Calvinsim and the reformed theology of T.U.L.I.P. But then you come to study it yourself, or see it in the bible, or read Romans again, and you start to realize, its not that crazy. At the very core, the biggest problem I now have with true Arminianists (that is, freewill), is that we like it because we get to play God. We get control. I'm sorry, but I know, I do not have control, God does. #simplebreakdown
Something that I've been reminded of this week... D.T.S. Die To Self. Now the ironic part of it is, DTS is what I did in Aussie. Discipleship training school, and it wasn't until a random student, from a different YWAM base said this to me while we were talking on a lawn at a church about volleyball. That came to define my time there. Constantly, I will Die To Self. Who am I to be important? Who am I to have rights? Who am I to be the center of attention? Who am I to think I deserve anything? I will... Die To Self. All Glory to God.
Again, these are just random thoughts.
Chained to Him,
Jeremy
P.S. This is a portion of E-mails my grandma and I send.... I just thought they were too good, I had to share. I took out some parts:
You see, I'm kind of in the same spot right now. I mean, I very well could start applying to churches else where, but I just absolutely love the students I already have. No longer is it about my job, but about these students. And if it takes me working full time at Pizza Hut, so be it. If I can help, I'm in. That being said, there is motivation for me to move on and find some kind of "career" in order to prepare myself in the next wave of life.
To be honest, I'm nervous about seminary. I'm sick of waiting to see if I'm even going to get in. What will happen if I don't? That would blow apart what I thought the plan was. And maybe that's the key word... "I". I don't want to follow my plan, but God's. So, if I don't get in, so be it, God has another plan.
This morning I was listening to John Piper about Calvinism. I, like most people my age, hated the idea of Calvinsim and the reformed theology of T.U.L.I.P. But then you come to study it yourself, or see it in the bible, or read Romans again, and you start to realize, its not that crazy. At the very core, the biggest problem I now have with true Arminianists (that is, freewill), is that we like it because we get to play God. We get control. I'm sorry, but I know, I do not have control, God does. #simplebreakdown
Something that I've been reminded of this week... D.T.S. Die To Self. Now the ironic part of it is, DTS is what I did in Aussie. Discipleship training school, and it wasn't until a random student, from a different YWAM base said this to me while we were talking on a lawn at a church about volleyball. That came to define my time there. Constantly, I will Die To Self. Who am I to be important? Who am I to have rights? Who am I to be the center of attention? Who am I to think I deserve anything? I will... Die To Self. All Glory to God.
Again, these are just random thoughts.
Chained to Him,
Jeremy
P.S. This is a portion of E-mails my grandma and I send.... I just thought they were too good, I had to share. I took out some parts:
Hey Jer, I just finished reading through your last blogs – your folks were here last night before taking Uncle Mark to the airport, and they told me that you were continuing to blog. Good for you – I can see you are still growing, and also putting your past experiences together to realize what an influence your family, home and church have been in your life. Not everybody realizes or even values the inheritance God has given them, and how it lays the basis for what they want to do in their life in the future.
I’m thankful that I’ve had a little part in your life, and you in mine. Of all my eighteen grandchildren, you are the one I’ve spent the most time with, in some of the most critical decisions of your life. That’s a privilege. I hope we’ll be able to continue in some way, even now that your life is changing direction – seminary, a serious woman relationship and work. Let’s try to carve out a little space once in a while for Grandma time. I can’t believe how busy my life is.
I’m praying about seminary and (girl). My two such important decisions all at once. But I think you’re ready for them! Love you, Grandma Lutz
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Hi grandma.
You know, here's something I've never really told anyone, and I its a little sad to say. But when our dearest Grandpa passed away to hang out with Jesus, I remember sitting in the Chapel and God was speaking to me and I realized a few things. First, that if I could ever be half the man he was, I would consider myself a man of God like Elijah the prophet is said to be in the old testament. Second, I regretted not spending time with him. It's something that he said to Nathan or Mark when asked "do you have any regrets?" Grandpa replied with, 'not really, but I would have spent more time with my family, and less under the hood of a car.' I've always taken that to heart since then, its one of the reasons I value our relationship so much and constantly and pushing to make time for us to get together.
So yes, is my answer, lets go (Get some Coffee).... When?
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